"Oh, the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are His judgments and His ways past finding out!"
When we come to see God as a God of paradox, it opens for us a door of understanding into His "higher ways" and His "higher thoughts".*
In God's economy weakness is strength, servitude is freedom, the poor are rich and so on...
Jesus' disciples were at first scandalized by this seemingly upside down philosophy: They wanted to become a new Nation, Jesus wanted "Nobodys"; they wanted to be lords, Jesus called them to be the least; they wanted a King, Jesus gave them a crucifixion.
I can understand their perplexed, crestfallen state in the upper-room, in that seemingly anti-climactic moment following the execution of their Lord, which was, in actuality, the most triumphant moment in all of history. It really does require revelation from the Holy Spirit to grasp God's perspective, to see the sense in Christ's counter-intuitive ways.
But I think it's a matter of waiting...waiting prayerfully in the upper-rooms of our own discontent, our disillusionment, sometimes even our despair...until the Holy Spirit comes with the wind of wisdom and helps us to zoom out from our limited lens on life and our resultant compartmentalized conclusions to view things from the vantage point of Heaven.
From this lofty lookout, this God's-eye-view, what seems like very fuzzy math indeed, adds up afterall.
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."