Believe

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You can close the blinds

Pull the curtains

Seal off every crack and crevice

Disallowing the Light

You can hunker down in this darkness

Impenetrable

Unperturbed

Insisting "There is no Sun!"

Asserting disbelief in its existence

"How can I," you cry, "believe in a Sun

Which burns

Which causes pain

Which dries up entire deserts

Which hides when warmth is needed most

Whose rising impels me to work

Whose setting allows such Night in my life

When I'm desperate for 

and despairing of the Day?"

You can hold tightly

With the tenacious grip of a toddler

To your defiance of a Deity you don't understand

You can get colder and colder

Wrapped in the blanket of your disbelief

Of your denial

Eschewing any possible Good

Benighted by what you see only as bad

Or

You can risk removal

Of your limited lens

Let your finite perspective

Be peeled away

Accept your smallness in the scheme of Things

Your blindness to The Big Picture

Allow the pain through which you peer

Which has muddied your view

Exposure to Heaven's Orb

Which seems to have wounded you

Which is your only hope for healing

The Sun goes on shining

Whether we believe in it or not

Giving Life

To the most massive of planets

The tiniest of mustard seeds

Indifferent to none

Despite what you thought

His Eye is on the solar system

And the sparrow alike

Nothing goes unnoticed,

Escapes His gaze,

Eludes His Love...

In your most honest moments

The ones no one else sees

When the superfluous is swept away

And all that's left is your most primal knowing

You Do Believe in God

You just don't believe that He is Love

or if you do believe that He is Love

You don't believe He loves You

And the pain of such an errant belief

Is too much to bear

So you choose

Instead

The anesthetic of Unbelief

At war within yourself

This belief and unbelief colliding

In which state Peace is an impossibility

Let It Go

Risk the pain

Feel the fear

But allow also for the possibility of Love

Know simply that you do not know

That even, perhaps, you cannot know

Herein lies the key:

You Do Not Have To Know

Only Believe

What you Deep Down Believe

Let in the Light

And all that comes with it

The "Good"

The "Bad"

The Pain

The Healing

Open the blinds

Choose to see

The Sun is shining

Love Is waiting...

Believe

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"Come, and let us return to the LORD;

For He has torn, but He will heal us;

He has stricken, but He will bind us up...

His going forth is established as the dawn,

He will come to us like healing rain to the earth."

-Hosea 6:1-3