Sunday, August 7, 2011


"Thou, Oh Lord, are the lifter of my head."
Psalm 3:3


Today I let the volcano erupt....
The one I'd been keeping so carefully cooped up
The one active with ancient angst,
engorged with grief,
rumbling with endless rumination,
old sorrows stirring in its bowels,
percolating with the pain of the past,
wounds and regrets
my folly and failures
finally becoming too much for me to hold...

So finally I folded
and out it came
In torrents of hot tears
In a ball on my kitchen floor
Beneath the coffee pot,
also percolating away...

I let fly the lava flood
and felt the ache of endings
Days and months and years of yearning
painfully purged
Let Go...

I lay there enfolded
in Invisible Arms
utterly spent

Then came the still small voice
as the lava cooled
and turned to ash at His feet.....

"Leave that here now, my love,
At the foot of the cross,"

(who knew that the foot of the cross could look so like a linoleum floor)

"Leave the tears, the tumult, the dreams long dead
Leave the loss, Leave the longing
Leave it all in My Hands
where Ashes, by and by, breed Life
where dead bones are Breathed upon
and Live

Time to Turn, my Dear One
and Trust
that by and by
all will be Beauty."


“The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon Me... heal the brokenhearted,
To proclaim liberty to the captives,
And the opening of the prison to those who are bound...
       ...To comfort all who mourn,
       To console those who mourn in Zion,
To give them beauty for ashes,
The oil of joy for mourning,
The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness."
-Isaiah 61:1-3 



  1. You can share your heart in words in an incredible way....You surely have a gift.....

    I pray for you and I pray that you will soon be set free and know all the abundance that God has planned for you.....

    Hugs to you sweet girl...

  2. oh Liz....hope you can feel my hands
    and heart
    outstretched and loving you.
    As I ache with and for you,
    I remember a photo series of Mt. St. Helens
    immediately after it erupted,
    then a year later,
    then 5 years later.
    The GORGEOUS foliage and wildlife
    that emerged from the ashes
    was epic....just stunning beauty.
    I believe we're going to see
    just such a wonder
    as your days and weeks and months
    are held in the tender hands that
    stretch and tweak time
    in ways I can't begin to understand.
    He makes all things new
    with ways that are so much higher
    and brighter than ours.
    I love and cheer you on, dear one:)